Faith healing

The journey to becoming a healer begins with many prayers. I believe that there are those who are called to this path of personal transformation who have their own thorns and physical traumas.  These experiences allow us to  become the light at the end of long dark tunnels for others. I have been approached by those wishing to serve this way, the best form of advice I can give is that the true path of a healer comes when humility and confidence merge together into one.

Beyond linear time, certifications, classes and trainings,  the true path of a healer comes when humility and confidence merge together into one.

Humility is the product of faith.  It comes with the experience of putting your own life in the hands of God.  When you really come to believing and knowing without a shadow of a doubt that there is a force greater than yourself guiding you, then you can sit in witness as others 
receive the release of their shadow stories and let go of traumas.  Merely an observer working in accord with their own personal guidance system, their own path will unfold, however long they wish it to be.  For the work of faith is a personal one, it is internal, and I do know I can not take a person anywhere they are afraid to go.

I grew up believing in Jesus and the benign force of a Creator whose miracle worker representative responded to a blind man who approached him saying, "if you just want to make me well, I will be healed" by reaching out and placing his hands on the eyes of this man and saying, "I want to."  I have the story of his compassion and kindness emblazoned upon my deep consciousness and also, the willingness of the people approaching him to believe.

I have a belief that is validated and confirmed for me by my experience.  I have experienced spontaneous instantaneous miracles when as a 28 year old my pituitary tumor came out my nose from, of all things, a spiritual experience (Shamanic Burial) confirmed by MRI to have healed my gland of its imbalance and the chaos it was wrecking upon my vision and my endocrine system.

And I sink into that space of knowing that healing, true to the bones, cellular altering healing, happens both ways.  It is both the responsibility of the giver and receiver to accept that change is possible, not at a mental level where we tell stories and dictate timelines, but in our bones.  True willingness to be broken-hearted willing to press forward and know beyond all expectation beyond all the things people have to say in fear, beyond all the seeds any doctor has planted that you are now in a new body experiences new things and to accept with a state of wonder that you are not the same soul, spirit, mind or body. to give the outcome over to God...even if it means disappointment...that to me is the greatest act of faith. 

To live as though the miracle has happened, to live as though you have been given a new lease on life, to leave off the fear to follow your heart, to allow space for it to be true...that is the healing that is hope...and where there is hope, there is life.  Now or in dreams to come.

And, though I give thanks for modern medicine, I will not under emphasize the power of changing our life, our habits, our thoughts.

 It is what leads me to have the faith to let go of one life and leave for another where uncountable miracles take place and blessings are experienced, but I am not naive enough to say all people should follow this path of not knowing of passing through the void of money, home, friends, health and future in a belief that things can change at any moment in time, not because of anything I say or do, but because I do know there is a force greater than all of us that has set the sun rising and setting so that everyday can be brand new, the stars at night to guide us back to the light no matter how lost we may feel, and dreams to keep us from giving up when all things seem lost.

During some of my travels through conspiracies and wandering for 12 hours a day not knowing where I would sleep, I came to realize the greatest medicine we can ever give to ourselves and to the next generation is to remember things the way we would like them to be, not the way we fear they are.  There is a way to balance our worries about our bodies or the future of the planet, there is a way to bring those things of the dark into the light and then bless them for their teachings on balance, on simplicity, on organic, on natural, on Earth medicine, on rejecting GMO, on not ingesting poisons and chemicals, and there is a place of knowing were are miraculous adaptable organisms who have somehow managed to survive.

Will we survive as a human race?  Can we return to mental health?  Can we remember ourselves whole and complete?  Can we remember love, forgiveness, and drop our boundaries that have become walls that block us from human contact and healing our relations?  Can we come back to community?  Can we leave off technology that gives us the impression we are connected and actually lift our heads to see who is here with us now and to be present in the moment they are?  Can we learn that discernment is different than judgement?  Can we come back to believing in things of the light like devotion, integrity, care-taking for the old and poor?  Can we come back to balance and not forget that we will age, we will grow old, we will die and what will our legacy to the next generation be?  Will we teach them to see the sickness and death or will be teach them how to focus on the fire, the light, the potentiality within each of us to instantaneously transform and allow our bodies and relations to be healthy?

Two of the first teachings I learned in the tipi ceremonies were:  

You (as in the spirit essence, the unalterable God core in each cell...YOU) are as perfect today as the day you were born.  

You can choose to walk out the door and leave all everything  behind, walking into the world in a state of wonder...that everything, everything has changed.

And in that moment of hopelessness within me or others, when people ask how...I am naive enough to smile at the most horrendous of things.  I am willing to stake my future and life on the belief that there is a force in control of this chaos and surrender my fear to look people in the eyes who don't understand, even when I also do not understand and say GOD.

How will it transform?  How will it heal?  I don't know, but I surrender everything all belief all thoughts all actions over to this one intelligence and imagine miracles are real, miracles are possible.  That if we can not change anything else, if all seems lost, how can we turn our thoughts because in the end, it is the way we feel about our life, our experiences and others that will heal everything else...one love breath word at a time.

And I turn from shadow work to light work, that I can choose to break through now and behave as one who has all my prayers answered, meaning one who is happy, healthy and abundant.  I ask, what does Zonia who is happy, healthy and abundant do?  She grabs hold of people now, she openly loves, dances, and believes.  She takes care of her grandmother and smiles about it.  She does her yoga, tells God thank you when all her housing has fallen away and packs her car up for the road, not because of what has been lost, but because of what she is looking forward to enjoying.  There have been enough experiences now that I know something beautiful is coming.  That is I can bypass regrets I can right now, today, in this moment act as one who is blessed. 

Because no matter what is happening, I do know I am blessed because I am here.  Somehow despite my father stepping on a landmine in Vietnam, somehow despite my  ancestors being surrounded by genocides, crossing oceans, somehow the greatest miracle of all has happened today...I am here.  The sun is shining.  The birds are singing.  And I take the time today, to thank God for all the reasons I have to be grateful.

Thank you to each and everyone of you for sharing this life with me and for believing in and trusting the love between us no matter how much time or space may pass between us...I bless you. I bless our relations.  I bless our lives and pray for all of us a bright and happy future filled with miracles that are working for you.