I awaken at sunrise. Walk to my shell with cedar, sandalwood, bay, palo santo offerings. I watch the smoke rise, light a candle, sit on my knees, and lift the mala gifted to me by a beautiful being who visited at Mar de Jade in Mexico.
108 times. The Adi Mantra: Om Namo Guru Dev Namo.
I am moving from medicine ways back to yogic practices of breath as my Creator, the Great Spirit, that moves me, that moves all things. I remember this being the first information I learned as a child, that God was the spirit of the breath breathing us alive and causing us to become. I pray to that force for universal insights and ask for the highest source of wisdom.
Adi Mantra: “I bow to the All-That-Is. I bow to the Divine Wisdom within myself.”
The chanting leads me into my deepest heart and to the Golden Chain of teachers through whom I am linked by the energy of generations of beings who also were seeking union. I channel in spoken words:
Praying outloud requires us to listen to our own words as they are being spoken and decipher if they are being spoken from a place of truth or from route words that have been deposited in our minds through various mediums, even good ones.
In the secret places of our hearts is what is called the cave of Buddha. The cave of Buddha is our truest most authentic self and it sits in the very center of our heart, said to be the 5th chamber.
It is our soul connection. It is our Earth connection. It is our connection to both adopted and blood family. Most importantly at the center of the Buddha heart is the electromagnetic pulse that is the Source of Creation. Intelligent, responsive, at the heart of all cellular structure in all beings seen and unseen at a vibration of Universal caring, attention, a conscious being sitting steadfastly in silence as the black matter that encompasses the entire Universe in its own heart.
What are this Being's desires for its own creation?
What play would it have us enact that allows us to transcend the dual nature of both light and dark aspects of both Creator and Destroyer?
Good and evil is a topic of discussion since time immemorial, but within us was implanted the seed of Ultimate Destiny, of peace, love, unity.
Like the sifting of flour in the sieve to remove impurities we must first bring them to the light and be willing to look at them. Those little clumps, imperfections based on false premises, implanted ideas, and traumatic events that need to be dissolved so there is no barrier between our highest, truest Soul Self and the outpouring of Holy Spirit, Mana, Awen, Qi.
Functioning from this higher level we see ourselves as whole and healed. Free from the need for (as in addiction to) medicine, we sense inside of our healthy selves an elevated state reached through the mediums of divine worship, concentration on our highest qualities and longing for what is described in the Bible as the fruitage of the spirit, (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, mildness, and self-control), bestowed upon those who, in earnest and for no reason other than knowledge and wisdom, recognize there is an operating system that was put in place long before our physical birth, and a desire to help it run smoothly as all other things in the Universe do.
"Just as a tree will bear fruit when it is properly tended, so a person will manifest the fruitage of the spirit when holy spirit flows freely in his life."—Ps. 1:1-3.
Human beings have been endowed with a beautiful gift of freedom to choose a value system that clearly denotes what our purpose for embodiment is. As spiritual beings functioning at a human level, the goal of Jaccob's ladder or the effort of any practice you choose, be it singing, dancing, gardening, yoga, mediation, writing, film-making, raising a family, devotion to the Beloved, path of prayer, the list is endless for the ways that there are, as Rumi says, to kiss this ground.
The intention behind why we do what we do is the value system and at the end of our life will be an accumulation of evidence supporting what we know to be true living with Soul essence or to the contrary in which case we have lived a life unable to connect our base desires with what we know to be true for ourselves, in which case we have not met our soul mission which is to align our physical bodies with what our Spiritual bodies know is the path of health, truth, and beauty.
To be sure, all things contain God. It is impossible to be in existence without this functioning at a core level. Acknowledgment of God and surrender to divine force is a different matter. At times, due to environment, imagery, and false teachings, we develop addiction and appetite for ourselves and the path of endless pleasure, also known as hedonism.
It is a study. There is wisdom in knowing the path of excess, as Enigma, calls it.
There are other paths.
The study of Tantra is the study of how to bring pleasure, joy, passion, beauty, love, and relationship into alignment with our personal truth and devotion to a higher calling that is the harnessing of energy in the world that is directly around us as a result of that which we meditate upon silently and quietly in our own private homes and spaces.
This we may keep private and secret from others, but it is always seen and known. The meditations of our heart are heard because at the center of our heart is our Soul and in our Soul's heart is our seed of connection to the Grand Master.
What part do you wish to play as the Grand Master comes to know and display all infinite aspects of personality and their ramifications and blessings. There are differences in qualities of life.
What is the quality of life you seek?
In seeking that quality of life do you maintain your connection to the Earth?
Do you connect to the divine source of wisdom?
Do you take care of your body?
Do you elevate you mind and thoughts through self-development?
Do you feed your spirit?
Do you nourish your connection to God?
This is what Ghandi called, "spiritual resistance" and Krishnamurti reminded us "it is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society."
Being a force of health in a sick society, however, can help to be a beacon of light and hope. We are not victims. We are greater than our own limited thoughts.
So,though we may not understand the course of events, and though those course of events may appear to be on a collision course, we must always remember, this Earth, this Solar System, this Galaxy, this Universe is functioning at a perfectly, mathematically, precise level. If we surrender to our dharma, our calling, then we will know we came here as Souls to manifest our collective Ultimate Reality, which is beyond any of our imaginings.
We are allowed, invited, blessed to have the most beautiful life we can and to cultivate compassion for our fellow human beings so they also can prosper. enjoy life, and learn to have courage in order to change the structures, habits. and addictions to either stories and behaviors that are negatively impacting the quality of life being lived.
My prayer this morning is for all of us to recognize our inherent connection and to utilize that inherent connection to add more positivity, light, peace, trust in the Great Spirit who breathed us all to life. May that final projection of our Ultimate Destiny be maintained clearly so that we have extraordinary reason for praise and thanksgiving.
On this day, I circle the air with my red tail hawk feathers, collecting all my selves from all times and places choosing the stories of my life that reflection of love for other myself and those moments in time that have been unequivocal synchronistic guarantees that my life, that all of our lives, are precious.
I invite all Beings to continue on their own path to wholeness, not getting stuck in one aspect of our personality, but continuing to evolve shift and change as age and experience naturally give rise to. On this day, to all of my loved ones, past, present, and future, I send a heart song.
May we all vibrate with the Universe in conjunction with those here to assist us and our survival, not only now in the physical realm, but also as we transcend and complete our Earth mission. May we be welcomed with open arms with those who love and appreciate the beauty we contributed to society in whatever way we could conceive on those perfect days that caused us to become aware that the choices and value systems we hold inside like prayer bundles matter so much more than we can ever realize but certainly can celebrate.
Before I can begin to finish this route that took me through the states down to Mexico, before I can finish one blog, before I can land fully at my new home where my ex is now remarrying, and my former ex and I converge, while I fall deeply in love with my boyfriend and learn to softly swirl in the pool love has prepared me to swim, I pause to reflect on memories-recollections of life as it is and as it is going.
That none of it was planned orchestrated or organized, if anything I have merely beep beeped along this road of life and taken it for its challenges and many great blessings. There are many ways and meetings that come from Source energy higher functioning soul and passively accepting so that all I can say is life in all its ways is perfect.
Gratitude for unexpected reunions and unity.
How much we feel into it’s perfection depends on our ability to let go of what was into what is for us now in this place for reasons we may or may not understand for questions to be answered with experience to guide our way along routes we would not take or perhaps are so far down that it’s time to circle back to beginnings.
Birth and rebirth. Children running in fields and best friends that giggle swing sets for hours of observation and play hoola dance around make a little love ok a lot of love and spread joy friendship and truth in the end it isn’t about the sex it’s about feeling in the end it isn’t about position or prowess although the more you love the life you’ve lived and know how to follow your spirit to the beach where breath meets breath and sun rises nap on native blankets walk. Keep walking don’t get caught up your whole life will be an orgasm. There’s a blank spaciousness opening around your heart, it’s infinite.
Ask me a question. I’ll tell you no answers. All I have is the path of tears hope trust love that has laid itself out in front of me and I follow. I don’t know where it’s going but it feels like the past and the future dna chain spirals together it’s the link to those who lead and have past and those who follow born again
What day is it?
The best day. Do you know how to live it? The same way you live everyday. With prayer eyes open to the quietude of heart floating sweetness and ease.
And laughter follow the laughter it’s the path that leads you to happy homelands your true friends and a place you know that knows you back. All your life path all you do feel think sense it flows into one love...the one that brought you here...the one to which you return...pranayama moons and stars constellations and chariot rides.
The spirit horses that ride gliding like sail boats and tree swings to golden rays and your own heart settles in the dust like prairie skirts and wide open skies. Manifestation of love’s power on your behalf.
What does it want for you?
The things you can not voice that live deep in the valley that hums a little ditty that reverberates collar bone skull and heart pulsing electrical to connect you with the cellular breath that is God directing us connecting us whole.
Healer, Spiritual Advisor, Yogini, Mentor